These are the dark times — made so much worse because you are already grieving a great loss. I know I would think I was doing okay and then I would crumble. I would call friends and cry or pray, depending on the day. Exercising (lying down) helped me feel better. But PWB made me really happy. My surgery was 9 weeks ago, and I am walking without crutches with very little pain.
I wish you well.