I hear ya Lindsay.
I came so close to losing my leg, so when I think of getting back on my motorcycle I have such mixed feelings; fear being one of them.
But guess what. That fear is normal for what we have been through. You CAN’T help but to have those feelings after the trauma you, I, and others who are unfortunate enough to need this site have experienced. It helps to be able to talk to someone about all of this, and that’s where this site is so helpful.
For me a lot of here-and-now thinking has helped. I can’t worry about tomorrow until tomorrow gets here. Today I will do exercises to bend my knee, do some self care, read, and watch some Netflix.
Today, you don’t need to sell your horse. And you will deal with tomorrow’s issues tomorrow. Take each day like that if you can.